When you are in your 20’s you think you know everything and you have your whole life ahead of you. You think you have plenty of time to do everything you want to do. Guess what, you don’t.
I am 61 today and I am amazed how fast time went by. It is only now when I look back I realize how much I did not know and how precious time really is. I was so busy trying to do everything right that I forgot to just enjoy the day. I forgot to just sit and enjoy Angela instead of trying so hard to be the best mother. I was so focused on being the best employee, the best mother and the most capable wife that I did not allow a lot of time to just have fun and be in the moment. I was always planning the next day, week and year. That changed when Richie suddenly died.
After Richie’s death I started to learn how fragile life really was and how planning should not be a thing. I now plan vacations, but I don’t plan my life anymore. Since retiring I wake every day with just a plan on how I want to enjoy my day. Most days it is about crafting. I have decided to use my talents to give back and bring joy to others. I found George and I am thankful for him every day. He is a true partner and he gets me. He thinks I am beautiful even if my outward beauty is quickly leaving. I see an older, overweight woman when I look in the mirror. But more importantly I see a happier woman. I may never achieve thinness, but I have achieved happiness and contentment within myself. I make it my priority to enjoy each and every day for what I have as I don’t know how many days are left in my life. I like to assume I have many years left, but no one knows for sure.
Finally, I have learned to be kinder to myself and my own shortcomings, but more important, I am learning to be kinder to others as they try to navigate their own journeys. I remind myself everyone’s journey is different and everyone has to find their own way. Some days I am more successful than others and some days the judgmental part shows up and I have to talk to her and remind her I don’t know everything and my opinion is not always the right opinion.
As you read this blog today make time to just enjoy where you are right now. No day is guaranteed so we need to enjoy every day.